[00:00.000] 作词 : Chelsea Cutler/Kevin White
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Chelsea Cutler/Kevin White
[00:09.039] Skin and bones
[00:11.072] Stomach aches
[00:12.359] Lucid dreams hold my breath when I'm wide awake
[00:16.782] Connecticut
[00:18.749] Dissociate
[00:20.234] Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate
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[00:23.570] If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of
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[00:33.786] I'm getting undressed for my lover
[00:35.816] And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do
[00:41.237] I'm reading books and drinking coffee
[00:43.823] Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
[00:47.870] The water goes downhill, and still
[00:50.525] I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[00:55.719] And I don't feel alive, no I don't feel alive
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[01:05.273] Telehealth
[01:06.853] TV episodes
[01:08.641] Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow
[01:13.029] Validate
[01:14.808] What I know
[01:16.617] What I believe in and everywhere I wanna go
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[01:19.806] If I could, I'd wake myself up when I am somebody that I'm proud of
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[01:29.849] I'm paying three different psychologists
[01:32.072] Trying to remember who I told what story to
[01:37.472] I'm writing feelings in a journal
[01:39.761] Cause that's what people who have their shit together seem to do
[01:44.137] The water goes downhill, and still
[01:46.638] I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[01:51.925] And I don't feel alive
[01:55.381] No I don't feel alive
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[02:00.509] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[02:08.098] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs
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[02:16.141] I'm learning how to set my boundaries
[02:18.671] How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
[02:23.992] I'm turning off my f*cking cell phone and trying to have honest conversations in real life
[02:30.391] The water goes downhill, and still
[02:33.223] I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[02:37.932] And I don't feel alive
[02:41.777] No I don't feel alive
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[02:46.919] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[02:54.596] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[03:02.573] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[03:10.161] I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs