[00:00.000] 作词 : Daniel Nwosu Jr
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Daniel Nwosu Jr
[00:03.703]I’m tired man…
[00:09.694]Sometimes I just sit in my room and hold my breath
[00:15.191]And let all the pressure and anxiety build up
[00:19.193]And just let the time pass by
[00:22.890]At first, I couldn’t breathe
[00:24.394]Now I’m suffocating
[00:25.401]Maybe the pressure from the fame isn’t worth what I’m chasing
[00:28.896]I used to say God’s playing,
[00:30.892]Now the devil’s on my team acting foul and it’s all flagrant
[00:34.145]Tryna push me off the path that I’m steady paving
[00:36.892]Sin is the currency and every day I’m making payments
[00:39.890]I don’t wanna live in it but I heard a saying
[00:42.402]“Good knows evil cause the houses are both adjacent”
[00:45.391]I don’t know if I should go for these goals
[00:47.647]I’ve seen people gain the world but lose their souls
[00:50.393]My anxiety is building as the weight of it grows
[00:53.155]I succumb myself in privacy inside my home
[00:56.150]And I barely answer calls and when I see my phone
[00:58.896]I’m reminded that the real feeling of being alone is having millions
[01:02.598]Who love you but can leave you or say that they hate you
[01:05.591]At the moment they don’t **** with a song
[01:07.608]I used to laugh it off
[01:08.845]Now I hold my breath and suffocate
[01:10.842]Then I sit and wait just to see if I can kill the hate
[01:14.350]And as I’m fleeting I see God at the heaven’s gates
[01:16.846]Then come back down to fight another day
[01:18.848]Then I grab that same phone and smile and wave
[01:21.850]And pour my empty heart into a song that they won’t praise
[01:24.845]They say patience is the key but they didn’t tell me,
[01:27.852]While I wait I’ll be locked inside a steel cage
[01:30.601]Something’s wrong, I feel claustrophobic
[01:32.845]I’m stuck living in the past and not the moment
[01:35.593]Or the future where my life is only more broken
[01:38.347]Cause those wounds from the past are still open
[01:41.346]I take sips of love and every single time it’s poison I see
[01:44.353]Women who can’t see past my employment
[01:46.846]Or see me as enjoyment so I can’t enjoy it cause the ride’s temporary
[01:50.858]And they leave once they crash and destroy it
[01:52.848]I don’t think this life is healthy, why didn’t anybody tell me?
[01:55.344]Everybody want help but nobody wanna help me
[01:58.355]I’m an ATM, a therapist and everybody’s friendly
[02:01.102]And they hide their real intentions but my mind won’t let me
[02:04.095]If I make a sad song, don’t ask me if I’m happy
[02:07.320]**** a hook, my pain isn’t catchy
[02:09.814]If you relate, or worse feel badly,
[02:10.814]****ing pity me at least and check in if you at me
[02:15.320]That’s the only way I’ll know who it touches
[02:17.571]That’s why I stay awake and answer DMs by the hundreds
[02:20.312]So I don’t lose myself and fill my stomach with the feeling that
[02:23.315]I’m here just to suffocate for nothing
[02:26.065]If you know real pain then you see it when you look me in my eyes
[02:29.563]I try to hide it but they do not lie
[02:32.816]I wanna sleep but if I try,
[02:35.856]The demons who creep in my dreams will collide
[02:38.066]So I stay up and I stare at the ceiling
[02:40.317]And ask myself if I should even share these feelings
[02:43.070]Then I hear a voice in the distance from a ghost-like image
[02:46.315]Saying my pain could be somebody’s healing
[02:48.815]So I close my eyes and drift to the place that inspires these lyrics
[02:54.818]And as I see flames and I scream,
[02:57.018]I pray it’s a place you’ll never have to visit