In my life seems often times I have someone with me who later on will not pick up their phone because they're done with me What's up with me? Not trying to force it, trying to let it come to me Regardless situations end uncomfortably There's no need to run from me it's just that I have demons that are hunting me Over time they've weathered me and shrunken me And brought out the punk in me Though my manner may have been perfunctory Suggesting I was fronting's an affront to me I was just delusional as usual Though my story's not a tragedy More comedy and musical See if I could just be me and you could just be you that would be beautiful If not the pursuit of our union is unsuitable Not sure exactly what I'm getting done I'm not trying to settle and settle down with just anyone Which has lead to situations that I promptly want to flee But I know I'm getting closer to the place I want to be THE PLACE I WANT TO BE I KNOW IT MUST BE SOMEWHERE 'CAUSE OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT THERE NOW THE PLACE I WANT TO BE I was lost but now I'm kind of found I went from breaking hearts to mostly laying around To now I'm writing it down Just think if all the time I'd had a mind that's sound Imagine all the things I might have found I picture something so profound it might astound Of course those types of thoughts are merely folly since there's only here and now Besides the fact if not for all the wreckage, fear, and doubt there'd be no record that you're hearing now Perhaps I've finally come around Intent to bare my soul if time allows I practice self control when I'm aroused Right now there's lots of theory but I'll put I'll put it into practice As soon as I get my chance Until then I'm practicing my tactics Because I want access Yonder I wander around the x and y axis To get from A to B Single guy trying to figure out which degrees signify the place I want to be THE PLACE I WANT TO BE I KNOW IT MUST BE SOMEWHERE 'CAUSE OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT THERE NOW THE PLACE I WANT TO BE I am well aware this life is an event so in a sense I am already there But I don't to want to go to Coney Island and win somebody a teddy bear If seeing it on their bed or on their desk is destined to cause them despair Be it the next day or be it the next year I'm sincere I want to keep my conscience clear I want to get to a place where I'm with someone I can never replace Who doesn't later wish that I was someone she could erase Who I don't make to feel like she was defaced Let me rephrase I want her to be . . . safe Sorry that's such a big deal I am like a toddler on a big wheel But I've been weeping instead of keeping that same energy Basically I'm racing to the place I want to be