i could've sworn i heard fate whisper

then along came the pressure

it's no great mystery they said my name with the best of them

by any standard i'll matched tones with the banshees

if the keepsakes bound for the landfill

and the rear view found a new home in a laminate

y'all ain't even know the prerequisites

time to dismantle with one phone call to your management

by nature coddling an odd nurture

put a rest to claims y'all god's favorites

ain't here to give an explanation

a ceaseless vigil on the daily

touch of nightshade while i forsake my maker

mayday i've seen them running in disguise as saviors

trade pride for paper

broke bread with the violators

leave me in my isolation

reveries of days gone grinning when the levee breaks

same school they bend spoons to educate

student of amusement filled a looseleaf watch me second guess

like an honest conversation wouldn't resonate

i'm so motherfucking tired

i'm literally exhausted

shook it off when the zealots came to bargain

aged bourbon straight to let my ego do the talking

a bleeding heart conveyed will be the offering

a catalyst for disbelief suspension

most friendships only convenient

olive branch to eat with the heathens

hit them with the silent treatment

maudlin mondays detached on weekends

sleeping on sunshine sentiment

wrote this soapbox soliloquy for the last participant pleading

howling through the evenings

kill the cash cow for no reason and be that as it may

i wouldn't have believed it either

front the plain speak if y'all insist

the trick is not minding if it's unappealing

imprint or fade into oblivion

with traces of myself judged by false witnesses

i'll split the difference while i bump heads with the braindead 'til i'm livid

under the weight of my own volition

thumbing through the overlooked remnants

err on the side of caution trauma bonding

mistakes that's weighing on my conscience burned a hole through the image

and came to let them know the creed a work a fiction