\"Shut up!\",

I keep telling myself

But the words keep coming out like hiccups

I want to be smart and funny, but

the smart thing right now would be to shut up

\"I'm so sorry!\",

is all I'd have to say

But those words are locked away

behind stubbornness

and worry

I don't get why it seem I never learn

By now

you'd think I'd have enough scars and burns

Really, I know how to avoid most fights, but

trouble is: I only know in hindsight

Maybe I should say the alphabet backwards

'cause this can't be right

I should have given you my shoulder

instead of advice

on that long bus ride home in the middle of night

I should've come with to buy fries

instead of going to bed

I should've showed you I loved you instead

of a lot of other things I did

I don't get why it seems I never learn

By now

you'd think I'd have enough scars and burns

Really, I know how to avoid most fights

trouble is: I only know in hindsight

I've read \"the road's washed out\"

so why won't I turn?