(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
FUCK!
I didnt mean to
Fuck on a gold bitch like r2d2
But I’m just using these sex lines as cover ups
For whats really going on behind the cups
That hide who I really am.
You’re not you online, just who you think you can
Be a group or account, a weirdo really likes it
Making money off of it, get a job, you’ll find it.
I was depressed for a year, nobody was there.
The hell you talking about with “Oh I’ll be right there”
When none of you were, not even ones that are above me
But I needed it, thats why.. (I’m trynna make recovery)
Im just tryna
Hop on a joint track
Hop on a beat my writers block disappointing the whole stat
My pencil gone blunt I needa get my whole point back
And find my purpose im poised recovering my vocal chords back
Im spoiled that I got out of this position
Some people can’t recover back from submission
Lungs infected and hissing
Pain colder than prison
Recovery is the feeling begging you to put the pill down
Recovery is the ceilling begging you to just keep it locked down
And not crash out and pick up the pieces loss of life
I thought id never pick up my demons and throw em out a 30 story
Building
I thought id never come back like a boomerang im chilling
But internally I already crashed out
Internally my ceilling broken and I ripped the walls out
I ripped my fuckin balls out I took my fuckin hair out
Where the beat gone i already ripped out the snare, yeah.
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
I feel like I'm being dragged deeper again
I feel like its going to a deeper extent
I feel like I'm always on the defense again
I feel like I'm closing in a place of cement, its real
Real travelin, I feel like I'm stumbling
Watching as the world around me fades, I feel it crumbling
Had nobody to reach out to me when I was struggling
Only had myself to find help, and get back up again.
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
(I'm trynna make recovery)
