[00:11.70]I waste my time on my whole life
[00:14.19]Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
[00:17.51]I waste my life in broke mind
[00:20.58]Hold my words cuz they never come out right
[00:24.17]I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
[00:26.93]I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be be fine
[00:29.87]I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
[00:32.21]That my reflection in life isn't all that unkind
[00:35.98]Can't I be a little self sure
[00:38.23]Self secure On that I'm not all that I think I am
[00:41.93]Can't I get a little control
[00:43.98]Open my doors,On that I'm not all that bad as I think i am
[00:47.77]I don't really care for what I have left
[00:50.33]Because i ****** myself up so much,I might deserve all this mess
[00:53.52]**** all this love,Because I hate to admit
[00:56.23]That I'm really like this,Just Scum piece of ****
[00:59.70]And I know I could be brighter
[01:02.35]Yeah I know I could aim higher
[01:05.21]I know I should think lighter
[01:07.24]I know i'll be fine if I was a tryer
[01:10.83]Yeah,I hate how I can't let myself hang low
[01:14.08]If I didn't speak at all I think I would let it go
[01:16.82]But if I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
[01:19.98]But I've been feeling godamn low,well I just can't let it go
[01:23.54]Do you remember 2013
[01:26.05]From then on I wished my life was unseen
[01:28.85]Cuz I hate who I could have been,Let myself slit up my skin
[01:32.01]And drown all my dreams,Going down In the sink
[01:35.42]I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
[01:37.52]Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
[01:40.74]I'm sorry My words can't be any sharper
[01:43.44]But I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
[01:46.75]Yeah,At least you could have said I'm gone on the drugs
[01:49.94]But I am sober now and I still seem to **** up
[01:53.00]But I'm sorry I can't accept all your love,It wears me off
[01:56.22]Leave me in my head because that's tiring enough?
[01:59.86]I waste my time on my whole life
[02:02.77]Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
[02:06.12]I waste my life in broke mind
[02:08.63]Hold my words cuz they never come out right
[02:11.59]I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
[02:15.10]I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
[02:17.85]I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
[02:20.01]The reflection in life isn't all that unkind