[00:11.15]Sometimes pain runs deeper than blood
[00:14.25]Sometimes karma comes back on the people you love
[00:17.44]Sometimes we gotta let go and turn the other way
[00:21.05]We just fightin' for another day
[00:23.18]Cause everything has a cause, you may not like the effect
[00:26.84]A heart full of pain and a life full of regrets
[00:29.33]Forced to make certain choices that you might not respect
[00:32.53]In this world full of hate, just a child of neglect
[00:37.03]You may not like the effect, life full of regrets
[00:42.51]You might not respect, a child of neglect
[00:46.17]Verse 1
[00:46.78]He was breathin' in cigarrette smoke, watching cartoons
[00:50.94]Loud yells comin' from the other room
[00:53.94]Landlord bangin' on the door askin' where the ******' rent at cause it's 30 days overdue
[00:59.88]Nobody answers it
[01:01.35]They was smokin' up the house like they ain't know that **** was cancerous
[01:05.01]But his mom is still tryna quit
[01:07.19]She ain't got no one to depend on to provide for her kids
[01:10.03]She's working 2 jobs
[01:11.40]Barely makin' enough to fill his stomach
[01:13.39]It's still filled with nothing
[01:15.06]Hard times, she can feel 'em coming
[01:16.79]And it's been that while for a while
[01:18.92]She raisin' a fatherless child, you can see the pain in her smile
[01:21.97]She got unpaid bills piling on up the counter
[01:24.66]No matter how close to the edge she got something about her
[01:27.96]And never let her lose hope
[01:29.58]Even when she hit rock bottom, she feels the noose around her neck
[01:32.38]It's just a loose rope
[01:34.06]But it's only getting tighter, suffocating her slowly
[01:36.54]She's a lover and a fighter, but something just keeps her lonely
[01:39.54]She got a collect call but she already know who it's from
[01:42.33]She took a deep breath, answered the phone and begun
[01:45.28]She said I gotta move on with my life, I told you it's done
[01:48.32]Plus it's been 2 months since you spoke to your son
[01:51.17]It's not about me and it's not about you anymore
[01:54.11]It's not about running the streets and acting a fool anymore
[01:57.11]You've been gone for 7 years, their's nothing you can do anymore
[01:59.90]Cause I've lost everything and I just can't bear to lose anymore
[02:04.07]You see, theirs somebody else
[02:06.00]Not because I'm in love, but cause I needed some help
[02:08.79]The type of help you can't provide
[02:10.75]I'm sick of waiting
[02:11.62]I'm sick of sittin' around knowing you might not make it out alive
[02:15.07]Sick of not havin' somebody by my side
[02:17.15]Sick of our kids askin "where's our daddy?"
[02:18.93]I'm sick of tellin' them these lies
[02:20.86]I'm just sick of it all
[02:22.48]And if you ever met parole and have plans for the future, please don't get us involved
[02:26.55]Don't call, don't write
[02:28.07]And most of all, leave my child alone
[02:29.79]And before he could say a word
[02:31.37]All he heard is a dial tone
[02:32.79]Verse 2
[02:43.46]As his mother put down the phone he heard her saying
[02:45.74]"God, I really need you right now, please just show me a sign, my heart is bleeding right now"
[02:49.90]But he was only a kid, so he really didn't really know much
[02:53.31]Still tryna understand why his mother cried so much
[02:56.00]Father's Day was the worst
[02:57.57]Plus they ain't had no money in the bank, so it felt like every holiday was a curse
[03:01.89]And his birthday just passed
[03:03.26]He's getting ready for a lonely Christmas
[03:05.14]They say his dad is gone for business
[03:07.07]But he knows the difference
[03:08.39]Starting to forget his father's face and what he looked like
[03:10.74]No bedtime stories, no good mornings, no good night
[03:13.63]Just a good luck from the judge, his life would change with a sentence
[03:16.32]Slam the gavel down, he's found guilty of all the offenses
[03:19.47]On the other side of the fence, left his child defenseless
[03:22.37]Now he fends for himself, but he feels so relentless
[03:25.21]His momma's boyfriend drinks until his demons come out
[03:28.10]The liquor takes control of his soul, he don't speak with his mouth
[03:31.20]He speaks with his fist, disagree get beat til your pissed
[03:33.94]The type of pain that'll make you put a knife deep in your wrist
[03:38.97]Speak with his fistThe type of pain that'll make you put a knife deep in your wrist
[03:43.49]Bridge
[03:49.14]You didn't have a clue
[03:51.89]That you got people who
[03:57.06]You're affecting too
[04:05.75]It's not just you..
[04:08.93]Outro: Phora
[04:23.37]Sometimes the choices you make, they don't only effect you
[04:30.38]But they also effect the people you love and care about
[04:35.00]You see, I wish I could say that it's never too late
[04:38.50]But I would only be lying to you
[04:41.45]Because time and the people we love
[04:46.07]Are the only two things we can never get back in this world