[00:23.25]Maybe things would be way different
[00:26.13]If I ain't drop out
[00:29.30]Maybe I would've been normal, just like you
[00:34.91]Now it's all this paranoia when I hop out
[00:40.53]Cause everybody wanna catch me
[00:43.84]Slippin' 'juana show that action
[00:46.61]But baby, I don't know
[00:49.76]Is this for sure
[00:52.63]I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
[00:56.28]If you ask me what I think, I say
[00:59.14]Yeah, this s*it gets to me
[01:01.91]Why do they threaten me?
[01:04.65]Is this s*it meant for me?
[01:07.59]Is this s*it meant for me?
[01:10.78]I'm f****d up mentally
[01:13.74]Please send some help for me
[01:16.70]Is this s*it meant for me?
[01:19.56]Is this s*it meant for me?
[01:21.94]But s*it, I gave it all to you
[01:23.16]I watched everybody do well after they left me
[01:28.68]And they just used me
[01:30.47]Till they felt that they were good
[01:35.09]Some girls told me that they loved me
[01:38.09]But when I was all f****d up
[01:40.68]You ain't help me
[01:42.56]You ain't call me, s*it got rough
[01:45.55]But baby, I don't know
[01:48.70]Is this for sure?
[01:52.21]I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
[01:56.17]If you ask me what I think, I say
[01:59.19]Yeah, this s*it gets to me
[02:01.94]Why do they threaten me?
[02:04.71]Is this s*it meant for me?
[02:07.48]Is this s*it meant for me?
[02:10.75]I'm f****d up mentally
[02:13.67]Please send some help for me
[02:16.76]Is this s*it meant for me?
[02:19.57]Is this s*it meant for me?
[02:21.91]This s*it, I gave it up for good
[02:24.12]I hear excuses way more than
[02:25.71]I hear "I love you"s
[02:26.91]I hear more "**** you"s than
[02:28.40]"Nobody is above you"s
[02:29.82]Every girl I tried to talk to
[02:31.10]Like some normal, basic idiot
[02:32.86]And I just gotta act like
[02:34.16]I ain't really pissed, but maybe I am
[02:36.12]Maybe I'm pissed that I ain't on yet
[02:38.18]And everybody in my city loves to taunt me
[02:41.03]Like I won't beat somebody's f*****g ass
[02:43.08]For throwing dirt on my name
[02:44.43]I don't ever get no perks from my fame
[02:46.69]Cause ever person always sees me
[02:48.38]As a meal ticket, like **** all this s*it
[02:50.46]I'm really f*****g mad that money exists
[02:52.69]I'm really mad that everybody chose the clout
[02:55.03]And these ******* instead of helping me out
[02:56.99]Like, do I really gotta tell you out loud
[02:59.38]I saw hell in 2015
[03:00.94]And since then s*it ain't changed
[03:02.55]I got bigger, but people treat me the same
[03:04.68]Waiting in line for all these clubs
[03:06.34]That should pay me and people think that
[03:07.90]I'm crazy, but I got self-worth
[03:09.67]People just take it
[03:10.67]Never understood why people gotta
[03:12.68]Act like heart and love ain't important
[03:14.51]Why these girls I meet just hurt me and bore me
[03:16.78]All I asked for was a house for my mama
[03:18.89]But then she died
[03:19.76]All you said was that
[03:20.82]I'd make it here easy, but ***** you lied
[03:23.10]*****, you lied
[03:27.00]After that summer
[03:28.07]I felt like I was running away from this person
[03:30.27]I'd been for so long
[03:31.43]And hid it behind all these foolish vices
[03:33.73]I came home one night incredibly
[03:35.44]Under the influence and called you
[03:36.57]Shaking, paranoid, blacking out
[03:38.96]And hearing you call my name over
[03:40.29]And over again, panicking
[03:42.30]Russell, Russell, Russell
[03:47.18]"Russell? Russell? Wake up"